know me ~~~

who really know me ?
who really know my feel ?
who really know what im thinking ?
who really know what i want ?
who really know what i wish ?
who really know why i sad ?
who really know why i happy ?
who really know why im in "pain" ?
who really know why im quiet?
who really know my world ???

hari pengasas .

tml is hari pengasas , which ppl call teachers day ... actually im not planing to go to school tml .. but today the stupid teacher suddenly ask all of the taekwondo mmbers must wear full uniform tml ! wajib ! wajib !
Shyt man ! cant sleep longer edi ! some more got exam next week ! wan study in home also cannot ! what the .... who will goin to wear the full white training uniform on tml ?! somemore wan standing there like rock , wait til all the teacher come in dewan oni can sit ! damn malu man !!!!!!
haiz what to do ... the teacher teaching my class , if i din come means " rotannology " on next monday la >.<

Breakdance .....

yeah ! now learning breakdance at school d ! so funny ... but till now oni now 3 types T.T..
today teacher din come to class .... dance for two period wit frends in class ... damn tired !!
but not so hard actually .. hahax...may be next time can become gau sau go for concert edi ...
haiz ... that all la... so tired , wanna sleep d - -

suck....

today damn bad mood in school ... whole day din talk ... din smile ... din eat ...
when assembly that time ... i was sleepy and thinking something ...
suddenly teacher call my name .. ya .. damn loud .. i was shock ...
then i stand up slowly , walk to the frond there , take the sijil , say terima kasih cikgu , come back and continue to sleep...
Time to go back class , its moral now , but i was reading the novel book ( konserto terakhir) and don care bout the teacher , cz i noe , she wont write my name in the BKK . even write also no use , wat to do ?! i am the one who suppose to "take care" for the BKK . but suddenly , she stand beside me and take off the book without saying anything...after the class oni i take back .
then sejarah time ... ya .. i laugh when the teacher trying to tell us bout the Sir Harold MacMichael ... but juz once .. i think it was the 1st time i laugh in sejarah time ..
All the way until school finish .. juz like a person who lost his soul ...
some one at school ask me wat is happening .... i say ntg ... but in my mind , i answer :" because of the dream"......

heart go on ..... ( pls stop the muzic bside>>> if wan listend )>>

http://www.youmaker.com/video/sa?id=92f9f45c86574ba1b8ebad8a51807055001

tired !!!!!!

today got teakwondo exam in school . our schul and a primary schul together . early in the morning 8.45 like that go train till 1.30 then oni start exam ...
haha . . . got 2 small cute boya taking exam too ....
damn cute ar !!!! when my turn that time , i wan shaking infrond of the master ..
not bsc of i scare . . . is got a leng lui siting beside there watching !!!
but anyway... the leng lui is the 2 cute boys 's mother ==...
the exam eand at 1.30 something ..... haiz... totaly train for 4 hours more !!! tired !!!
when going back home by bus that time , i was sleeping in the bus , but suddenly the driver ask all of us go down when until half way . . . wasai ! kereta rosak ?!?!?! ... then take taxi with 2 more frends . when back home not even rest str8 away go tiution edi ...
after tiution , i back home and became a snack landing on the floor and sleep .
haiz... today the whole day juz training my staminal !!!!!

无聊的一天。。。

今天在家，下着雨，我坐在房间，看着窗外的雨，不想出去，因为跟妈妈吵架了。。。
一边望窗外看，一边听歌，一边想东西。。。
想着带你飞到天上去的情景。。。想着和你在山上一起看夜景的情景。。。想着和你一起逛街的情景。。。想着和你在雨中行的情景。。。
忽然，一阵响亮的雷声把我吓醒了。。。，是老天爷把我叫醒，叫我不要在想了吗？
不久，有两只麻雀战在我的窗口，当时，我在想，要是能变成一只麻雀又多好，自由自在，没人管，没人理。。。
这时。。。听着林俊杰的（一千年以后）。。。
没错。。。一千年以后，世界早已没有我。。。一千年以后，所有的人已忘了我。。。 还有谁会记得我呢？
人生有多少个十年。想那么多又有什么用呢？？
能实现再说吧~~~

干物男。。。

嗨~~~越来越穷了。。。没钱出街。。。没钱给补习费。。。没钱考试。。。没钱买衣服。。。没钱买书(buku rujukan)。。。什么都要钱！sei dak lo ~~~~
如果现在有工作的话，我一定会去做的！！！不过当然除了做 itik la.....
就快要变干物男了 T.T
怎么办？！？！？！
不过还好，有安慰奖，拿到第5名，不会太差。。。
我会继续努力的！！！！

goodbye.....

sence i don noe wat is happening... i don wan talk alot ... after i read bout wat u writen ... i felt a bit sad ... but also felt happy ... cz finaly u noe the important of family ..
anyway...i believe that the fate wasn't end .. i will wait...may be we will meet after 10 years , or 20 years , or may be we will live in a same ( rumah orang tua ) after 60 years ...^^ ... trust ur self and me .... u can do more good than wat i think ....
wat i wish is juz 4ever be ur good frend ..... after spm... can "wet" 2gether , can happy or smile 2gether ... can help each other ... or even can sad 2gether.....

u r always gonna be the one who i can trust ! +u+u !

first love ~~~

多想时间能为我而停，
过去的时间，已经过去了，
怎样拉，也拉不会，
只能让眼泪随着去，
再等多一站。

you are always gonna be my love
you are always gonna be the one
you will always be inside my heart
i hope that i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one

好感。。。

老实说。。。今天。。。是我这些年来最开心的一天。。。可能是因为有你的存在吧。。。因为。。。和你一起的时候。。。我可以做回我自己。。。不会有压力。。。同时。。。也会有一点幸福的感觉，也许是因为只有你才能够和我分享喜怒哀乐吧。。。有时，还觉得你想一束光。。。带我不停的往上走。。。如果没有你，我就会不停的往下走。（很难明白咧？）。。。还有。。。今天还是第一次看到你又唱又跳咧。。。还蛮开心的。。。可惜的是。。。我们只能做朋友。。。不！。。是好朋友。。对吧。。。哈哈。。。开玩笑。。。开玩笑。。。

回到家。。。很想跟妈妈说我在那边看到表妹。。。一开口说了后。。。她无端端跟我讲：“ ti o o lo ”。。。也就是天黑黑的意识。。。你说！是不是等于没有讲？！？！。。。嗨~~~算了吧。。不想讲了。。。

anyway ...... thanks for giving me a nice day ...

scare !!!

haiyo ~~~ how come so mou yong one ! i think in this worl no body will like me who very scare of place which got a lot ppl ... wat to do ... may be u suppose to be alone sence born out gua ... haiz .... may be less frends bcz of this .... like to be alone ... ( like got 自闭症) T.T ~~~
ya .. may be ... but must force and train my self la ... wish some one can help me ... i noe la.. its juz look like help orang cacat ma ...
aiyo ~~~ damn diu nian arh !!! --

回忆。。。

嗨~~~ 有想会哪个地方了。。。不知要等到什么时候才能到回去。。。
嗯。。。。。。应该考完 SPM 后吧。。。
可以的话。。。我宁愿一个人去，或是带着喜欢的人去。。。
可以享受那边的风景，大海，还有很多很多。。。


可是说回来。。。都不懂那里找钱去啦。。。
最近补习老师又不懂有什么 intensive class ，每个星期日要不5个小时！！！
而且每个月的补习费要加 RM100 ！！！
可是其实也没什么啦。。。至少她还有包吃
而且全部都是为了 SPM 的。。。。haiz.... mou bin la ~~~


换成以前，至少会有人和我分享快乐，或是不开心的事。。。
可是现在，我就好像一个孤独的人，没人管，没人理。。。
在家。。。。。每次一有高兴的事我就会跟家人说。。但是，并没有人理我。。。他们不是专话题。。就是没反映。。。
有不开心的事时。。。也是一样！讲了等于没讲。。。
这只是一个让我睡觉的家。。。


在学校。。。对！！ 有快乐！有开心的事！也有不开心的事！可是有真怎样呢？
回到家。。。又变回我一个人了。。。
其实这样也很好啊。。。没人烦。。。虽然是一个人。。。虽然什么都不可以跟谁讲。。。但至少是安静的。。。。。

好久不见。。。

嗨~~~很久不见了，你还好吗？~~
样子因该变了很多吧？。。。
今天早上 uncle 先在你的学校。。。好像看到你。。。
可是又好像不是你。。。哈哈！！因该是开始老花了~~


haiz...今年要开始读书了，会很辛苦。。。
就好像昨天，读读下睡着了。。。
到了今年，我才明白什么叫读书！！！
erm ... 其实。。。老师也说得对啦。。。
放学后，在家温习，自己读书，还好过补习。。。
我也想不要补习了。。。靠自己，因该没问题吧？==

新的一年，因该有新的开始了！

烦！！！

每次在我耳边提起她的名不会闷的咩 ？！ 烦死人啊 ！！
男的也是这样 ！ 女的也是这样！
不需要告诉我任何秘密 ! 我不想知道！也不想去问！
我不是不敢骂她们！是因为她们是女的！
可是忍耐是有限度的！！！

我。。。

姓名：黄。。

华名：M.J 2 , vincent

性别：男

年龄：16++

身高：170

性格：不参人


爱好：听歌

习惯：听歌做功课，静静睡觉

爱吃：棒棒糖

爱喝：汽水

爱玩：音乐

运动：篮球，羽球

最爱看的戏：不能说的秘密， avatar

最爱听得歌：不能说的秘密，彩虹

最不喜欢：被出卖, 吵

落点：爱情

好朋友：建森，shao qin , lenny , keen weng , john , jef , kah hoe 等等。。。

知心友：yy ,eleen

stupid !!!!!!!

你可以吗我！可以教我！但是不可以讲我傻！
我跟你讲！如果你骂我傻！你生我出来！酱你是什么？！！！！
我很想翻脸很久了！！只是时间还没到而已！！
不要逼我！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

赢得痛。。。

今天，有人跟我说，她是个 play girl ，说她不停的换男朋友 ， 说她很 lan ci 。。。 我知道，他是特地跟我这样讲的。。。我因该用怎样的心情，怎样的脸，去面对他呢？。。 可是，如果我露出他所要的表情的话，我就输了！！！

然后，我笑着对他说：“都不管我的是，跟我讲做么？！”。。。他听了过后，就很 du lan 的走了。。

我赢了！！！ 可是，我再问自己，我是因该感到难过，还是包容她，体谅她，原谅她，还是当作什么都没听见呢？。。。

早上

今天早上眼睛一开，很懒起床，就拿起电话来听歌，听了很多首，每一首，都代表着不同的回忆 ，一边听，就一边想。。。为什么，一切都不能回头呢？

听完了 ，起床开门出去，打开窗口，用力的吸一口清新的空气。。。哈~~精神多了。。。

刷完牙后，泡一杯茶，一边喝 ，一边望着天空 ，我看着天空问：“我能回到以前平凡的生活吗？”。。。。

boring live....

morning go to school , finish school then come back , sometimes tiution , then come back , then eat , then sleep ....
all this things repeat and repeat every day .....
WAT A BORING LIVE !!!!!

爸爸。。。

嗨~~~最近很穷。。。补习费还没给，学费还没给， taekwondo 费还没给 ，其他需要用的东西也买不到。。。正凡。

今天跟妈妈聊了一下，她说，趁年轻时要回吃苦，不像爸爸那样，年轻时很多钱，可是却花光，到头来吃苦。

虽然我爸爸赚不多钱，我们过的不太好，每天为钱而凡。。。但是，在我心目中，他永远都是一个最好的爸爸。如果不是，他也不会每天早早起床，做到晚。而且不是只为了我们的三餐，而是还有水电费，共屋子， insurans ，和其它的。。。 我永远都不会忘记以前小时候他给我的快乐。。。

有时看到他回家后，很想问他一句，你的脚还有痛吗？。。可是又问不出！你讲我是不是 sot 的？！？！？！

我发誓！！！以后一定会让他们好过，也会让我自己好过！！不会让他们白共我读书的。。。

最后三个月。。。

一天，男人以为不舒服，自己到医院去检查身体。医生对他说：“你已得了恶性肿瘤，我看。。。因该活不到三个月了，希望你有心理准备”。他心里想着，“我知道因该做什么了”。。男人到女人家去做饭。他问女人喜欢吃什么，他都会煮。女人说：想吃鱼 。 男人又问：想吃什么鱼？ 。 女人答：“酸辣鱼” 。男人心想，糟了，不会煮，怎么办。。。可是，嘴里却回答女人：“好，我立刻去煮”。

到了厨房，男人从冰箱里拿了一条鱼，洗干净后，就切片。。。女人却站在他身旁看着他煮。。。切着切着。。。女人听见一声, “哎呀”。 原来是男人把手切伤了。女人赶快的帮帮男人包好伤口，然后，女人说：干吗那么不小心啊？不如还是不要煮了，我们出去吃吧”。男人回答：“不行！这次我一定要亲自下厨”。过后，男人又继续切葱。。。女人就做在一旁看。切着切着。。。女人又听到一声，“哎呀”。男人有切伤受了。女人又赶紧帮男人包扎好伤口，然后说：“你还行吗？”。男人很有致信的回答：“一定行”。然后，又继续切辣椒。。。切着切着。。。又传来了一声，“哎呀”。女人帮他包扎好伤口后，眼睁睁的看着男人。男人说：“不用担心”。有继续切番茄。。。不久，“哎呀”。女人已料到发生什么事了，所以一句话也没说，就帮男人包扎好伤口了，然后问：“不要勉强了好吗？”，男人说：“其实这是我第一次煮鱼，说议会有点手忙脚乱”，话不多句，有继续。。。男人终于把所有东西都切好了，然后拿去焖煮。。。虽然这次男人没有切伤手，可是不幸的是，“哎呀”。。。他被烫伤了。女人唯有再帮他包扎伤口。男人的无根手指头都包到完了。可是却煮好了。

接着，上菜了，男人竟然煮了五碟不同口味到的”酸辣鱼”。女人问：“这里只有我们两个人，为什么要煮那么多呢？”。男人答：“不好意识。。。这五碟里，其中一碟煮得太老了，一碟煮得太辣了，一碟煮得太酸了，一碟煮得太小了，只有这一碟煮得刚刚好。你就吃这一碟吧，其他的又我来吃 ”。女人笑了一下，然后看看男人那受伤的无根手指，然后拿起筷子 ，每一碟都夹来吃。

男人好奇的问：“我只叫你吃一碟，怎么你。。。。”。　女人立刻回答：“这些都是你煮的，不管有多难吃，我都会把它吃光。”。男人心里笑着，眼泪掉了。。。心想，是值得的。　

taekwondo fun ^^

today after tkd ar..bout 9.30 something ... oni i and lenny go eat .... we go amcorp there eat MC donal .. them song ! he belanja ... we eat double buger each person ... cool man..the buger so big until i cant open my mouth and eat .. lenny too .... but b4 we reach amcorp , when we passing through a cornal , a texi juz come and wit fast speed ! nasib baik i sim ! if not kena langgar mati d ! the distance between me and the texi ar , oni about 15cm !!! lenny so lucky cz he walk infrond , but also abit kena langgar d ! this is the first time that i feel that wanna ask the texi lou come down and punch him !!!!! when continue walking , i ask lenny , " y juz now i don let him langgar !! if he langgar me means i got reason kick and punch him d !!! ( cz im wearing taekwondo seluar that time) ! haiz...dam stupid "

after finish eat ar... we chat ... we chat alot of things ...about his beloved , about what we should do after spm , and alot a lot ... but ofcours got talk about my things also la ..... after we went to bus stop there ... we still chat alot ....haiz...wont feel boring when wit him ... ( but not gay k ) ....

after go back home ar... kenal scol by mom .. " y u don pick up my call ?! i and ur dad keep calling u also no pick up ! " .... hahax...i juz answer " i din bring handphone ma " ... then settle d ... when i look at the clock ar ... already 1.00 p.m ! what the ! dam late ... may be keng gai wit lenny too long d ...

heart stun ....

today , the 3th day . when i was concentrating doing my work in class , suddenly my fren ( desmond ) come talk to me . and talk something bout her that i don noe . after listend , i act like normal , and tell him i wont get any hurt !

when rehat time , after eat , suddenly my another frend ( kok leong ) come and tell me also something bout her . that yesterday he saw something . after listend . i still act like nth and go away .

when in class ... i force my self that i should not think any bout that anymore.......

180 change ....

yesterday very good in mood ... whole day in school also happy ... sejarah teacher talk alot fun in class ... may be bcz of saw some one gua ... after back home , bath , and eat , strat away go play game . and then see my blog .. the comment .. ntg special... folow buy someone's blog , but never read finish....and then chat a while wit someone , but suddenly off le =.= ... never mind ^^ , still good in mood .... till nigth , i go open again someone's blog , and read all . suddenly . heart break ! all the good mood gone ... at the same time , i was thinking alot of things .


until today morning . i still think ~ after reach schul , my frend ask me ,"y someone din go uncle bus liao de?"... i keep quite , and keep on walking to schul . i still keep on thinking bout wat i had read yesterday ... y i will feel like that ? when rehat time , i go buy nasi lemak eat . after eat ! i cry out ! my eyes and lips was red ! wat a pedas nasi lemak! when i go back to class , my frend think im craying ... when teacher start teaching , i was not concentrating , thinking bout other things and suddenly my eyes bcome red , this time ..... is real cry ..... i was very bad mood in whole morning .


after schul , i strat away go to the hall and play badminton , i think can smact out all my pain and hurt . but it cant . after that , i go to bus stop wait for uncle , as im walking , i still thinking . when i goes up , i saw uncle bus was goin away , i keep on run towards the bus , lucky uncle saw me and he stop .


haiz.....no mood to write la..... end~

好奇。。。

我在你的心里算重要吗？

我在你心里的分量有多少呢？

你把我看成一个怎样的人呢？

你有没有为我而感动过？

你在乎我吗？

如果有一天我走了，你会为我而流泪吗？

cant forget ur face .....

Angel~~

u will never satisfy , no matter how i try ...

if it realy got an angel in the heaven ....

i would like to ask for help from the angel..

" dear angel~~ , pls help me tell her that i love her "

" pls help me tell her that i need her "

" pls take me to her heart "

" pls take me to her soul "

" pls let her know that she is not alone "

" pls let her know that i will wait for her "

" thanks~~~~"

"and pls ...................."

hmm...hmm.... Wake up la !!!!!

家人 ...

总觉得在生活中绝不能少的是亲情！！

但有时觉得生活是一件辛苦的事！

父母时常说我们是最自由的~

天天不用烦恼这个，烦恼那个~

就是饭来张口、衣来伸手!其实，在生活里，我们也有烦恼！

只是我们不知道要怎么跟你们这些“大人”说~~

跟你们说也要骂，不说也要骂？

反而给我说一篇“大道理”但是不过，在社会上~

就不会有人提醒你、不会管你~

你可以任性，但任性过后，留下的只是残酷!

为什么我这样说啦？

因为在社会中、只有“尔虞我诈”…

会有谁会因为你的懒惰，任性，而包容你呢?

而家人会给予你鼓励，~

就算你失败了，就算你遇到挫折、只有家人跟你同患难！

这就是亲情嘛！！！！在我的生活中、有许许多多多的过路客！

因为他[她]们只是一瞬间停留在你的心中、但不会很久就走了！

也许、他{她}们不在记得曾经有这样一个人、这样一个曾经为你停留下来的人？

我渴望.....我依然是一个孩童~

但是眼看着父母那白发一根根的“冒”起来，心里真的好心痛~~

这是父母养育我们多年的一个“象征”我不能不承认在父母一天天的老去时，

而我们却在一天天的长大~这是无法否认的事实！

感觉上我越长大越烦恼，也开始越长大越懂事~~

但我不想长大，我讨厌我的身体、我的思想长大，

长大开始懂父母的烦恼，也开始懂了家庭的环境~~~

原来~~我才知道我们是父母的希望~~

他们探望我们长大，希望我们成才，不用像他们一样早去晚归的拼命赚钱！

我相信这点~~我们10后的孩子并不差，也并不是大人讲的那么糟！我们其实都在很努力！

first day of scul til now

first day :

very bad luck ! early in the morning sakit perut . still need to stand bus . when enter class , i'v been force to sit infrond . when in BM class , i juz write 1 word wrong oni d kena scold by teacher . somemore wanna listend class teacher talk bout the fees . need to pay RM 100.5 . haiz..goin to poor and poor ...

2 day :

also a bad day ! early in the morning go wrong bus bcz of uncle use 2 bus to fecth ! when return the form4 books to school , still need pay RM2.50 for losing book . din eat anything in canteen when rehat . AFTER REHAT DIE SOMEMORE ! the BM teacher ask me stand up and ask me question . i dunno the answer , then he go and KISS me ! >< ...... and when we whole class dunno answer , he ask the whole class stand up and jump like hantu cina (僵尸）

3 day :

most lucky day . whole day no need study ! hahax ^^